Bang! Brutality!

Today, July 31st, I heard another bothering news upon the death of a Law student from San Beda due to hazing. 

Such incidents are no longer shocking (for me) since this has been just an addition to the list of not just students per se but also innocent youth who are wanting to be part of not just a fraternity/ a sorority but as part of any group that seems to be appealing to them. 

I recall the incident as my father was asking me to join a sort off fraternity in our university. He asked me to be part of it not because of the violence but of what are the perks I am going to have from being a member. The said fraternity is one that is politically active, engaging in governmental talks rather than those getting caught up in rumbles or violence between other fraternities.

What is frightening about this issue nowadays, is the loosening grip of the school/group officials when it comes to having an assessment about organizations circulating in universities. They have brutal ceremonies or initiations to know the toughness of the neophytes. It is extremely saddening that you have to hurt people just to know their loyalty and strength when it comes to their devotion for the organization they are eyeing to be part of. 

As a parent, I could never take the pain of losing a child. May favorite akong MMK-- Maalaala Mo Kaya episode, yung kay Vilma Santos tapos sila Rodjun and Rayver Cruz ang mga anak nya, na parehong namatay. Sabi ni Vilma: "Kapag namatayan ng asawa, ang tawag balo. Kapag namatayan ng magulang, ang tawag, ulila. Pero pag namatayan ka ng anak, walang maitatawag sa iyo kasi walang kapantay ang sakit ng mawalan ng anak." 

Na instill sa akin ang episode na iyon. At ngayong isa na akong nanay, higit kong naintindihan at naramdaman ang halaga ng anak. Yung mawasak ang pangarap. Mapalitan ng luha at hinagpis. Ang mabuhay sa galit ng dahil sa apaw apaw na sakit. Walang kahit sino man ang may karapatang manakit ng kapwa. 

Sa pakiwari ko, wavelength na ngayon yang mga nasasangkot sa hazing sa mga nasasangkot sa massacre, homicide, at iba pang brutality sa mundo.

Sana higit na kamal na bakay ang ma implement ng mga school officials at ng mga nai-involve sa issue na ito na mga matataas na tao.

Pakikiramay sa pamilya. Ikaw na nag hangad ng pakikisama ay kabilang na ngayon sa isang organisasyong mas mapayapa sa itaas.

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Ugh! My bad that it took me over a month to not to have any entries here in my blogspot account. Feeling really upset that I never took even few minutes to jot down things upon what I have been up to nor what I have not been up to.

Alright, let me just say few things just before I hit my bed since tomorrow will be a new set of week for me to undergo! I have been staying at home for few days now since I got really sick last week. Went to see a doctor and found out that I have-- Acute Pharyngitis! Yes, got it from smoking! It is quite similar to having asthma-- not being able to breathe and all. So these days, I was totally groggy from all the meds I have been taking. And to mute mode since I almost lost my voice. 

And at the same time, had Athena to be checked as well. She's perfectly doing fine. The pedia said she's already fit to go to school, though she mentioned some important issues that I was really in awe to hear.

Bought a book from an online bookstore-- Leaving Katya. Quite odd however whenever I am reading my name, yet it gives me chills, I feel like it's the real me being talked about in it. Haven't started reading it though, I still have another book to get over. 

Currenty downloaded a lot of new songs-- from Gin Blossoms to A Fine Frenzy and from the locals as well-- Kamikazee, Ebe Dancel. It's amazing how music can lock you up within it's rhythm and lyrics and tends to also suffocate you. 

By September, as I end my part time as a personal tutor for Korean kids, I am already eyeing for a resignation. Not that I am abrupt about this decision, this has been lingering for months now. I guess there are a lot of priorities to consider especially now that my daughter is about to start with her schooling.

I have dreamed of John-- as if we were really together. That in reality what we have were pure happiness. I tried to not to wake up anymore, to just live with my facade is showing me. But I once again woke up, and reality slapped me that I am still not with me, that we are not even an inch close with each other.

"I'll be alright... as long as it matters. As long as you're here with me now" --Has remained to be my LSS for days now.

P.S. It ain't definitely gonna be a sunny day tomorrow, better to be geared up then!