Kids ask. As an adult, what could be your answer?

My 11-year-old brother asked this question in his Facebook account. And I reacted about it right away. I wonder why he have thought of this and how come he wants to know the answer. And probably he will just say, "Nothing, I just asked". 

I wouldn't be hypocrite to say that money won't make me happy, but I am certain that it won't make me feel alive far from what love can make me feel. Money-- I work 9hrs a day to come up with a compensation that lets me buy what I want and what I need. I can ran out of it, and it's either I'll be more thrifty, lend money, ask from my parents help or wait until the next pay day comes. Love-- a very complex and vague emotion. We have that love for our self, for family, for friends, for life and for death, for all sorts of art, for God, for whatever you see around you. For the past, present and the future. For what is existing and non-existing. For our significant other. One does not hold a specific meaning of it. Yet I believe that love is naturally selfless and limitless. (Lakas maka Ms. Universe ng line na ito)

Each of us have different interpretations of love. We use words, actions and other ways in which we let our emotions flow into others. For it to be felt, be heard, be understood, be shared. 

Maybe for my brother it’s just a very ordinary question, but with kids acting differently, I’m very glad that he still have this heart that is loving and carefree. He made me have further understanding of sensible things that often be neglected.

Guess us adults will always have something to re-learn from kids :) What about you, what will be your answer on this?

By the way, oh hello there, October! :)

Mama's using emoticons now!!!

This is purely random for today's entry. It was yesterday when Mama and I started exchanging a few texts-- I was fully amused on how likable Mama can text now. Hehe.

I was asking for extra money from her yesterday and this is how our convo went on:

Me: E yun nga Ma, baka pwede makahiram/makahingi ng 2k?

Ma: 1k?

Me: Uki :)

Ma: :)

Me: Wow! Umii-smiley. Thanks Ma. Super! :*

Ma: Love you kasi :)

Me: Ang cheesy! Kayo ba talaga yan? Hehe.

And she she phoned me just to say, "Gumagamit kayo ako ng smileys!" Haha. The way she said it was really funny. I wasn't able to resist laughing ;)

And then she texted me again.

Ma: Am I sounding weird today?

Me: Hmm. With your texts today, a little. Bagets ang peg. Hehe. Why?

Ma: Nah. Thought something like scary to you.

Me: Noooo! Grabe naman. Ang cute nga eh :) It's okay Ma. Do it often.

Ma: Okie :) (with the smiley again) -- yes, that's included in her text!

And this afternoon naman, I was making sumbong because I was late like almost 20 minutes for work.

Me: Grabe Ma! 02:02 nako dumating sa office kanina! Bale next salary, blah blah sguro deduction ko! Ayayay!!!

Ma: Bakit ka na late? Iwasan mo ma-late At sayang deductions.

Me: Sobrang traffic pagdating sa Mega. Then sa MRT, super dami tao. Kagulo! Oo nga po e, iba yung late ko today.

Ma: Kasi Sept 21 today. Commemorating Martial Law day declaration. May activity sa EDSA Shrin. Dun Pres PNoy kaya heavy traffic :)

Me: Ya, I know. But I didn't think that it would be that awful today. Another thing is, Ading was home; we had chika for a while :D try that smiley Mama. Haha.

Ma: I see. Be aware of dates of National activities next time eh?

Me: Haha. Mama, you're becoming Italian American now with your "eh". Cooooool! :) hehe. Love you Ma.

And just now she texted: Ui. 

I wonder what will be her next lines. Hehe. She's becoming cooler when it comes to texting. Gtg, I should talk to her :)

Para ito sayo, anak...

Hi anak!

Ber month na!!! Dati rati, wala sa aking kung dumating ang mga buwan na ito. Orinaryo lang. Excited lang ako kasi magpa-Pasko na. Pero nung dumating ka sa buhay ko, kaakibat ng excitement ko sa Pasko ang ka-excitement na nararamdaman ko kasi tatanda ka na naman. 

At sa taong ito, limang taong gulang ka na sa loob lang ng apat na araw. Tandang tanda ko yung araw na ipinanganak kita.

September 5, 2007. It was a very usual day. Kelangan lang ni Mommy magpa regular check up, pero ayaw na ako paalisin ng doktor non. Takot na takot si Mama noon kasi di pa naman kami handa. We weren't expecting you that early. 

Dinala si Mommy sa Delivery Room at around 2PM. Si Mama maraming binibilin that time. Kesyo wag akong matutulog at dapat alert lang ako. I wasn't even looking at her. Pinilit kong itago ang takot at kaba na nararamdaman ko. Pakiramdam ko that time, di ko na makikita pa si Mama.

And then I was on my own. No more Mama beside me. I was 18 then. At that age, normally nasa gimikan lang lahat ng ka-edad ko, or dapat e nagsisipag-aral. Pero hindi ang Mommy. I was in a room struggling against the fear that is within me. 

Pagpasok ni Mommy sa room, mataas pa ang sikat ng araw. The first 3 hours went very fine. Nakakapag-CR pa ang Mommy, nakakatulog pa nga ako e. But when 6 o'clock striked, dun ako mas hindi napakali. Habang patagal ng patagal, nararamdaman ko na yung sinasabing "pag-hilab" ng tiyan. Which I never thought would be really painful. Indeed giving birth is excruciating. I couldn't explain how much I wanted for it to be over. 

Nabalot ako ng takot na baka hindi ko na masilayan ang bukas. Parang ang haba-haba ng gabi nung araw na yon. Puro mga doktor lang ang nakikita ko. Wala akong ibang mapag-hugutan ng lakas ng loob.

10:25PM. Manila Doctor's Hospital. Finally!!! I was the last to deliver my baby!!! At ang statement ng doktor, "Ikaw ang pinaka-makulit!!!" Haha. I remember complaining about everything. All throughout, I was awake. Hindi talaga ko natulog, from the time na dinala nako sa kabilang room para umire-ire. Hihi.

When I saw you, I can still recall how magical that moment was. Ang kinang-kinang! Feeling ko nababalot ka ng isang magandang magic spell! Yung feeling na binaba ka ng langit, ganun anak, ganun ang sumagi sa isip ko. Na bigay ka ni Lord sa akin :)

It has been 5 long years, at hindi ko lubos maisip na nalagpasan naten yon. At patuloy nating nilalagpasan ang araw-araw. Anak, gusto kong malaman mo na kung uulitin ko man ang buhay ko, nanaiisin kong danasin ulit lahat ng sakit at paghi-hirap para lang sayo. 

Walang katumbas na saya ang sa araw-araw gigising akong nakikita ka. At uuwi ako mula sa trabaho na ikaw ang mamamasdan. Binigyan mo ng higit na kahulugan ang buhay ni Mommy. 

Gusto ko ring sabihin na sana patawarin mo ako. Sa kabila ng mga bagay na naibibigay ko sa iyo, e may mga short comings din naman ako. Pero kahit kailan, wag mo sanang iisiping, mababawasan ang tindi ng pagmamahal at pag-aalala ko sa iyo. Kahit mag-isa lang si Mommy, hindi ibig sabihin na di na kita kayang buhayin o kumpletuhin man.

Salamat anak, at binuo mo ang esensya ng pagka-babae ko. Asahan mong sa abot ng aking makakaya, hindi man maging perpekto ang lahat ng desisyon ko, lahat ng iyon ay para sa ikabubuti mo. 

Mahal na mahal kita anak. 

Who will turn 5 on September 5?

Yes! My unica hija will be celebrating her 5th birthday exactly a month from now and it gives me too much jitters that my small baby that was born in 2007 will now be a kid! A full blown kid! Aaaaaah! I'm super excited! I have been planning of what gifts I should give her, although I still haven't come up with a concrete plan for her special day. Maybe having a vacation leave from work and just spending some quality time with the love of my life would be the most appropriate thing to do. Yet, there are some gifts I am eyeing to give her now that she's becoming a kiddie yow! :)

A bicycle! It should pink-- that's her favorite color! Everything should be in pink I guess :)

Oh!!! This will be a perfect one for her! 

Or this set of Hello Kitty table and chairs that can be used in her schooling!

Those are the only items I want to give her. That is if my budget would allow me too :p She is my only girl and I am working so hard just to provide what she needs and wants as well. I want her to be exposed with a lot of activities that she can participate in. I couldn't be anymore delighted for her birthday to come! Thank you Papa Jesus for this celebration! :)